I’m limiting my feelings because we don’t seem to meet eye-to-eye. There are a lot of things that are tough to explain, but my feelings just keep on rushing in. And for the record, we call each other special names and do a little of PDA - and we are JUST FRIENDS.
How will you limit your feelings or attachment to a person who just treats you as a friend?
If I tell you that I miss you, will you also miss me back?
I tend to hold my feelings a lot, especially when I am upset. I tend not to talk to the person who made me feel that way. I just take my time and think about the situation. I don’t want other people to feel the same way that I do - and I think that is the reason why I always tell them I am fine even though I am not.
Sometimes, I avoid a lot of people because they confuse my feelings. They tell me that they like me and they act a certain way; and what they are acting is not really how they feel.
Today has been another struggle for the both of us and my mind is pretty much full of thoughts about you and how to make you feel okay again.
I am weird and too spontaneous; and I always seem to be that person who displays affection even if there are too many people. You can never really blame me for being like this; but it’s not your fault, too. Actually, what you said to me today got me thinking. Do I still want you in my life?
Thing is, I have no idea why we are both keeping up with this. It just seems that we are both comfortable having each other and we never really minded what other people say about us. We got too comfortable and I started to feel something different. I expected too much.
You never did promise me anything, not even a solid relationship - and I respect that. I don’t want to rush you or worse, change you. Because I know who you really are. I know you, all too well.
One thing is for sure, though - that I know for a fact that no matter how this thing ends between us - I’ll never be alone anymore.
There will come a time when I will stop writing. I will stop writing about you and how we used to be. I will stop writing about myself and how I feel. I would run out of words to say and my thoughts I can no longer gather. It will be all about goodbyes.
We share the love that people get envious of. That special kind of love where you don’t worry about a thing - but only the thought of loving each other. We both know that we love each other even if we are both quiet and reserved. You always drive me by with a whirlwind of emotions, just like the rain; and I write you thousands of words that I cannot compress to letters - but you seem to understand. You complete me like there is a missing piece. I will never let you go.