First and Only

May 18, 2012

Dear Diary,

I have never really dedicated a part of my diary about personal stuff, mostly about what is happening with my relationship with Kyf, for about several months now. I just seem to be tired of talking about it and letting other people know that even though we have separated ways over a year ago, things are still not okay between us.

Well maybe things won’t really work out, but I still hope for the best.

I don’t really know why I am even telling you another random misfit about me and Kyf. I just need an avenue for me to vent out these thoughts because she never really listens to what I am going to say.

Thing is, we had an argument a couple of days ago. It’s the first argument in five months, actually. I never really got used to it, even though we quarrel every time when we were still together.

I’m upset.

She sent me an apology message earlier, and our conversation started from there.

“I’m sorry. I never should have hurt you, even before. You don’t deserve it,” as one of her messages go.

“I’m sorry too. Just so you know, I meant every word I said to you.”

“Like the one where you said that you still love me?”

“Yes, most especially that one. You are my first and only option. I hope you know that.”

And with that, I felt that things between us can be okay, even for just a while.